Visual language

Visual language

I’m not entirely pleased with my method of working or my visual language as an illustrator and it is really beginning to frustrate me. I feel like I’m trapped in a box that I just cannot break out of; Especially when I see other artists who have a very strong sense of who they are as illustrators and produce coherent, brilliant pieces. When I look at my work, I don’t feel pleased, I feel irritated with myself for not producing something better. Whatever better may be.

I know I’m only just entering my second year as a student and that I have time to discover and evolve my voice as an illustrator. But it seems like nothing I do quite brings me satisfaction and I cannot say I’m proud of my work. I try exploring different methods of working, from trying 3-D, acrylic paints, digital work, embroidery, etc, but nothing seems to bring me the satisfaction in myself that I crave. If I feel even slightly pleased with any of my work, within minutes something comes along to crush that momentary confidence, be it someone’s comment or just seeing someone elses work. I don’t know what niche I want to fit into in the design world, be it editorial, textile, fashion, whatever. I think this lack of knowing, this lack of focus leaves my work scattered and heading in too many directions. I’m really struggling to make my work my own and even more so, am finding it increasingly difficult to find any confidence in myself, in any way.

I love illustration and know I want to do it for the rest of my life, but I also have so much doubt about if it’s where I should be, if I can’t even find my voice.