I’m all about the indecision, me. Or not. I am, really. Or not…

I’m all about the indecision, me. Or not. I am, really. Or not…

If you know me, you know I’m probably one of the most indecisive people on this planet. I change my mind a million times a day, even regarding the stupid, little things. Luckily for me, it’s a woman’s perogative to do so.

I’m the same when it comes to my illustration… I get an idea, which I’ll fall in love with for all of ten minutes, before finding motivation and interests elsewhere and thus quickly changing my mind. This is one of my major faults. It leads to last minute major changes to most of my work or even last minute starts, disallowing me to work on a piece for long periods, which prevents me from developing ideas further and making them better. I’m too impatient to spend long periods of time on things on top of it all and I easily get bored and want to dabble elsewhere. I’m the nearest you can get to being ADHD without actually being ADHD. I need to change this and hope to force myself to stick to one idea and learn to develop them further to get better, more thoughtful, results.

I have found in the past, the pieces that take the most thought, consideration and deliberation often end up being some of my most successful pieces. Though, the opposite at times rings true as well, and some of the pieces which take literally minutes can be my (as well as others) favourite.

I need to find the happy middle ground. I think this comes down to which subjects I choose. Obviously, a political-lead piece (not that I ever really dabble in politics with my art, as life is already to consumed with such things) will require more research, thought and insight than say, a fashion-editorial piece (my preferred). Not saying that fashion is mindless, but rather it’s a lighter subject I’d much rather think about than the dreary realities of the worlds economic/political/environmental state. Maybe I’m an escapist… infact, I know I am. I’d much rather daydream about “pretty things” than face reality, which to be honest, depresses me. And if you know me, you know I’m easily led down the path of depression without any outside help.

Now that I’ve droned on here, I think I’ve lost my train of thought… indecision… Yes, indecision… As usual, my mind is all over the place. I don’t even know where this was meant to be going.